I began studying Japanese by accident. I didn’t have much interest in anime or manga as a kid (aside from some movies that I really loved, which did have a great impact on me - I just had no idea they were Japanese-made and didn’t care back then). Before I went off to college, I was told I’d need to take a language course for at least 4 semesters. I was like, god, I don’t even know what I want to study as a major yet and now they’re also making me learn a freaking language? Whatever, I’ll just take Spanish!
Well, I didn’t vibe with Spanish. I had taken it for years in middle and high school, got fine grades and all, but just thought I wasn’t a language person. Fast forward to a month before I go off to college, and I’m realizing I actually really DON’T want to take Spanish again. I figured, now’s the perfect time to try something new because everything else around me is going to be new anyway. And might as well do something challenging! So that’s how I ended up choosing Japanese: it was new to me and it looked hard. LOL
I’m turning 29 soon, so it’s been over 10 years since I started my journey with Japanese. In that time I won an award from our Japanese department, studied abroad for a summer in Nagoya, joined the JET programme, lived in rural Japan for 3 years during the pandemic, passed N2 in Japan, got my Master’s degree, went back to my alma mater to give an info session on the JET programme, and now have been teaching international students at a university back in my home country (some of them from Japan - very fun).
I just took N1 in December after taking a long but much-needed break from Japanese study, and I don’t think I passed due to the nearly 2-year rust, but wow, it felt so amazing to study and use Japanese again for the months leading up to the test. Like, my brain just felt good and refreshed, and I had a nice tangible goal to work towards every day.
So, if anything, do it for you. Maybe there are goals you want to reach without wanting to live in Japan, and that’s fine. I personally don’t want to move back there, and I’m at the point in my Japanese language journey where I notice I’m fossilizing and plateauing here and there. That doesn’t really matter to me, I just find that learning a language at the advanced level is great daily exercise for an ever-aging brain. Plus, you never know when your language skill will come in handy for you or for someone else who needs help, friendship, or whatever else. You should also look into some other languages when you feel ready. Sometimes starting at the beginning feels good and is a nice break from the monotonous familiarities of the language you’ve been learning for years.
I hope you find your passion somewhere, even if it’s by complete accident like I did!