Thanks monkeytunes, this is a great perspective and I think you certainly understand my plight quite well.
At this level it is easier to see what I don’t know rather than what I do know. Being an artist as well, sometimes other people see a masterpiece and all I can see is the thing I wish I did better.
My knowledge of Japanese has never been better as I have never really gotten worse as it, my progress has just been slow. I also had TV Japan for like 2 years and watched it almost exclusively because the whole AJATT thing was all the rage at the time. I honestly don’t think I got all that much better. I got used to the flow and sound of Japanese, but I wasn’t studying a whole lot, so a lot of it just remained as simple sounds and fragmented pieces of sentences. It was easy to see why some foreigners live in Japan for several years and never learn. Bunpro has helped in having everything feel more whole.