I am sorry for your lost
But I do agree: 99,99999% anime sucks. I don’t watch really anymore. I like some mangas though (another example is Berserk). I think I miss-represented myself by giving learning from anime as example. I would not do that. I prefer books (from visual ones good one but probably with too hard Japanese is: Narcissu)
We are going to deep into of-topic I think. We can start this conversation in new thread but I would not bother: “Tastes are not debatable” (no idea how to say it not in Latin xD)